So back to this morning. I had made a deal with myself (one of those official-but-changed-your-mind-a-million-times-already-in-your-head deals) that I would not pee on a stick until Tuesday. But, I woke up early and with an urgency I decided to just go ahead and do it. So I did. And then I carried that pee stick to my nightstand and tried to fall back asleep. Well, imagine my surprise when my iphone screen showed enough light to read "Pregnant" (while squinting with only one eye open). Holy cow. I then had to get back up and walk to the bathroom to read it again with enough light to ensure I wasn't just seeing things. Sure enough, it still said "Pregnant". So, what do I do now? Well of course, pee on another stick! So that is what I did. Except this time there was not the same urgency if you know what I mean. Long story short, this test did not work because of lack-of-data. And then I was out of sticks.
I climbed back into bed and
I then came home and told the boyfriend. (A very sleepy boyfriend, mind you). And he said, "Really?" And I said, "Yes, really but don't get your hopes up. I already googled false positive and it said that is not likely but you can get a chemical pregnancy, early miscarriage, ect." I pretty much rambled off anything that could go wrong. Because that is how I roll. I prepare for the worst. I hope for the best, every time! But, you always have to prepare for the worst. And he said, "Ok." Because that is what he does. He says just enough for me to know how much he cares and understands. Ok is all I needed to hear.
Looking back on the last week, I haven't felt much different at all. There are only two "symptoms" that I noticed. #1. Very hungry. Like I want to eat the refrigerator, hungry. This is not surprising as I always feel this away about a week before my period. #2. Chills. This is the only thing that was odd (other than the waking in the middle of the night). Several times throughout the day I'll get a "chill" through my body. Most the time I blame it on how
So, I am pleasantly surprised with today but guarded. Excited for the future and have said many of prayers throughout the day.
New deal with myself: no peeing on pee stick again until Wednesday morning.