I find myself constantly comparing. I am comparing my job, my appearance, my home, my income, and the list goes on and on. Why do I waste my time on such useless thoughts? I know that I am so lucky to have such a full and blessed life. My husband is wonderful. That is probably the one department in my life that I do not compare because he is as good as it gets. This I already know.
Today, I felt a twinge of jealousy when I found out that two of my acquaintences were expecting babies. We have been trying for a whole TWO WEEKS and I am already wishing that I could be the one boasting a pregnancy. I can understand having a little jealousy if we had been trying for a while, but I haven't even given it a chance. Have some patience, maria! I think this stems from the fact that I think we might have a hard time conceiving. I have never been "regular" (sorry for the TMI) and birth control has always been a little hard on my system. I am hoping and praying that I am wrong and the road ahead will be a smooth one.
So, I thought today would be a good day to start a "gratitude journal". I know that my perspective on life and trying for a baby will be a lot healthier if I focus on the good in my life.
Entry #1: I am thankful for my health. I am grateful for my two legs that allow me to jog a few times a week. I am thankful for the opportunity to shop healthy for myself and my family. I am thankful that I have a warm home and wonderful kitchen to cook in.
I am feeling better already :)
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